Lost

I have lost myself in my own world for quite some time. Since unemployed for almost half a year, my lazy-ness have consumed most of my daily life. Everyday I will sleep late and wake up late too. Although I still got assignments to complete before dateline, I will just lost concentration on it and do other unrelated things.

I tried apply for job, went for interview but no reply at the end of the day. I tried wake up early and be healthy also in vain.

What have I become and did to myself? I need someone or guidance to guide me back to normal route.

=( 

Reality Check

Nothing that I have plan is going the way I want it to go. That includes work and simpler things, like study.


Is this a test? A test to reassess my priorities and determine the final destination that I should be heading?


It is so hard for me to rebuild back my foundation and self-worth. I feel so stranded though I know that everything happens for a reason.


Let it come around in its own time and keep my life in balance. Whichever way it comes in or whatever the results is, I accept that I will use it as an opportunity to either try again, make amends or make it right.

Tried - and - True

Take a good hard look of myself.

I am struggling at work and find myself annoyed with just about everybody and everything. It's time I dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business.

Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behaviour could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache.

I must genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving my own role in whatever it is I regret so that I can let go, move on and become more open to opportunity.

On top of that, I must master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I must try not to fall back to become my old self otherwise I will be feeling trapped again.

So, I need to recover my wits before making my next move. I must be willing to raise expectations and overcome fear of rejection, discovery or isolation.

At the end, I must tune in to my own passion to move forward with a sense of freedom and purpose.

Smile Pretty

Is what I'm going to do this weekend.

Feeling this good doesn't happen often, so enjoy it. I might also keep in mind that I can accomplish a lot if I jot down all the inevitable inspirations and motivations that I received recently. As twitching and fiddling won't help. And the remedy for it is get the deed done. Happy Friday! ^o^

Now I See It

Yesterday, I were absolutely certain I'd found the right path, the perfect company and the job whose style finally allowed me to express myself as I really are. Today, all that's changed -- drastically. Am I upset about it? At times I do. But I'm out experimenting.


I must be positive and avoid the negatives.... Plus don't think too much or over think... Move forward in the direction I've been meaning to go.


Today, all I have to do is walk one step at a time and at moderate pace...  =)

Screw Up

Everything that happen lately is a disaster.

 

1. Interview - not in smooth ground.

2. Group presentation -  we me literally have to re work again before the submission.

3. Personal - lack of sleep end up fall down

 

How much more can I bear?  =(