Reality Check

Nothing that I have plan is going the way I want it to go. That includes work and simpler things, like study.


Is this a test? A test to reassess my priorities and determine the final destination that I should be heading?


It is so hard for me to rebuild back my foundation and self-worth. I feel so stranded though I know that everything happens for a reason.


Let it come around in its own time and keep my life in balance. Whichever way it comes in or whatever the results is, I accept that I will use it as an opportunity to either try again, make amends or make it right.

Tried - and - True

Take a good hard look of myself.

I am struggling at work and find myself annoyed with just about everybody and everything. It's time I dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business.

Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behaviour could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache.

I must genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving my own role in whatever it is I regret so that I can let go, move on and become more open to opportunity.

On top of that, I must master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I must try not to fall back to become my old self otherwise I will be feeling trapped again.

So, I need to recover my wits before making my next move. I must be willing to raise expectations and overcome fear of rejection, discovery or isolation.

At the end, I must tune in to my own passion to move forward with a sense of freedom and purpose.

Smile Pretty

Is what I'm going to do this weekend.

Feeling this good doesn't happen often, so enjoy it. I might also keep in mind that I can accomplish a lot if I jot down all the inevitable inspirations and motivations that I received recently. As twitching and fiddling won't help. And the remedy for it is get the deed done. Happy Friday! ^o^

Now I See It

Yesterday, I were absolutely certain I'd found the right path, the perfect company and the job whose style finally allowed me to express myself as I really are. Today, all that's changed -- drastically. Am I upset about it? At times I do. But I'm out experimenting.


I must be positive and avoid the negatives.... Plus don't think too much or over think... Move forward in the direction I've been meaning to go.


Today, all I have to do is walk one step at a time and at moderate pace...  =)

Screw Up

Everything that happen lately is a disaster.

 

1. Interview - not in smooth ground.

2. Group presentation -  we me literally have to re work again before the submission.

3. Personal - lack of sleep end up fall down

 

How much more can I bear?  =(

 

 

Another Ordinary Day!

It just another ordinary day.

Getting ready for anything that come by. From being unemployed to grabbing any part time job available to assignment group discussion that come to no end.

What more do I have to deal?

*Clueless*