It is the time again to reflect and prepare for 2015. To a certain extent, 2014 is a roller coaster year to go by.
Here are bits and pieces:-
1) Career - still unemployed but working part-time here and there.
2) Health - very bad (gastric, food poisoning and not forget to mention admitted hospital for dengue).
3) Education - something that I'm proud of (sailing smoothly).
4) Social - hang out and meet with old and new friends and attending weddings too.
5) Family - become tourist guide when my aunts and family visit Penang.
6) Life - vacation to Singapore.
Well, that's all for now till then, see ya!
Time is like a thief, It has taken away some of my precious memo. But when I take stock of the losses in anxiety, I see you there, right there, intact. Consciously striving to improve life and dare to dream...
Wednesday, 31 December 2014
Friday, 10 October 2014
Lost
I have lost myself in my own world for quite some time. Since unemployed for almost half a year, my lazy-ness have consumed most of my daily life. Everyday I will sleep late and wake up late too. Although I still got assignments to complete before dateline, I will just lost concentration on it and do other unrelated things.
I tried apply for job, went for interview but no reply at the end of the day. I tried wake up early and be healthy also in vain.
What have I become and did to myself? I need someone or guidance to guide me back to normal route.
=(
I tried apply for job, went for interview but no reply at the end of the day. I tried wake up early and be healthy also in vain.
What have I become and did to myself? I need someone or guidance to guide me back to normal route.
=(
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Thursday, 15 May 2014
Reality Check
Nothing that I have plan is going the way I want it to go. That includes work and simpler things, like study.
Is this a test? A test to reassess my priorities and determine the final destination that I should be heading?
It is so hard for me to rebuild back my foundation and self-worth. I feel so stranded though I know that everything happens for a reason.
Let it come around in its own time and keep my life in balance. Whichever way it comes in or whatever the results is, I accept that I will use it as an opportunity to either try again, make amends or make it right.
Is this a test? A test to reassess my priorities and determine the final destination that I should be heading?
It is so hard for me to rebuild back my foundation and self-worth. I feel so stranded though I know that everything happens for a reason.
Let it come around in its own time and keep my life in balance. Whichever way it comes in or whatever the results is, I accept that I will use it as an opportunity to either try again, make amends or make it right.
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Friday, 2 May 2014
Tried - and - True
Take a good hard look of myself.
I am struggling at work and find myself annoyed with just about everybody and everything. It's time I dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business.
Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behaviour could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache.
I must genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving my own role in whatever it is I regret so that I can let go, move on and become more open to opportunity.
On top of that, I must master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I must try not to fall back to become my old self otherwise I will be feeling trapped again.
So, I need to recover my wits before making my next move. I must be willing to raise expectations and overcome fear of rejection, discovery or isolation.
At the end, I must tune in to my own passion to move forward with a sense of freedom and purpose.
I am struggling at work and find myself annoyed with just about everybody and everything. It's time I dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business.
Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behaviour could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache.
I must genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving my own role in whatever it is I regret so that I can let go, move on and become more open to opportunity.
On top of that, I must master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I must try not to fall back to become my old self otherwise I will be feeling trapped again.
So, I need to recover my wits before making my next move. I must be willing to raise expectations and overcome fear of rejection, discovery or isolation.
At the end, I must tune in to my own passion to move forward with a sense of freedom and purpose.
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Friday, 25 April 2014
Smile Pretty
Is what I'm going to do this weekend.
Feeling this good doesn't happen often, so enjoy it. I might also keep in mind that I can accomplish a lot if I jot down all the inevitable inspirations and motivations that I received recently. As twitching and fiddling won't help. And the remedy for it is get the deed done. Happy Friday! ^o^ |
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Monday, 21 April 2014
Now I See It
Yesterday, I were absolutely certain I'd found the right path, the perfect company and the job whose style finally allowed me to express myself as I really are. Today, all that's changed -- drastically. Am I upset about it? At times I do. But I'm out experimenting.
I must be positive and avoid the negatives.... Plus don't think too much or over think... Move forward in the direction I've been meaning to go.
Today, all I have to do is walk one step at a time and at moderate pace... =)
I must be positive and avoid the negatives.... Plus don't think too much or over think... Move forward in the direction I've been meaning to go.
Today, all I have to do is walk one step at a time and at moderate pace... =)
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Thursday, 3 April 2014
Thursday, 20 March 2014
Another Ordinary Day!
It just another ordinary day.
Getting ready for anything that come by. From being unemployed to grabbing any part time job available to assignment group discussion that come to no end.
What more do I have to deal?
*Clueless*
Getting ready for anything that come by. From being unemployed to grabbing any part time job available to assignment group discussion that come to no end.
What more do I have to deal?
*Clueless*
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Friday, 14 March 2014
Competitive
Today have my 2nd interview with this company. There is 3 of us for this session that have passed through the 1st interview. Each of us is assigned with a trainer to brief us on what the company do and what is the company expectation on us. After that, we are individually brought out by our trainer to other place for more comfort conversation rather than in office. Coincidentally, our trainer have the same mind set where three of us met again after 10 minutes drive at the same place - Old Town at New World Park.
We have about 2 hours plus of discussion with our trainer asking question that we have in mind. Once finished the discussion and get whatever answer that we want to hear, we are back to the office. There, we are asked to answer 14 questions on what we know or learned from the one to one discussion with the trainer. Then, we have a brief and short interview with the manager.
After the one to one discussion and short interview, we are now asked to wait patiently for news. Whether its good or bad... I can feel the tense among the 3 of us.. Possibility of getting the job is nil as I can sense the other 2 guy have the most motivation to achieve it.
Very competitive and I feel it very challenging. I never once felt so challenging when going for an interview. Cause most of the time is either the interviewer say sorry you are not the right one or we will contact you in due time.
Just wondering myself, am I up to par for this job? One more thing, will I accept the kind of salary that will be based purely on commission like type and on the performance?
Wondering...
We have about 2 hours plus of discussion with our trainer asking question that we have in mind. Once finished the discussion and get whatever answer that we want to hear, we are back to the office. There, we are asked to answer 14 questions on what we know or learned from the one to one discussion with the trainer. Then, we have a brief and short interview with the manager.
After the one to one discussion and short interview, we are now asked to wait patiently for news. Whether its good or bad... I can feel the tense among the 3 of us.. Possibility of getting the job is nil as I can sense the other 2 guy have the most motivation to achieve it.
Very competitive and I feel it very challenging. I never once felt so challenging when going for an interview. Cause most of the time is either the interviewer say sorry you are not the right one or we will contact you in due time.
Just wondering myself, am I up to par for this job? One more thing, will I accept the kind of salary that will be based purely on commission like type and on the performance?
Wondering...
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Monday, 3 March 2014
Two weeks notice
I tendered my resignation letter today.
Don't like the working environment with everyday facing the four walls, sitting in the cubicle, eyes glued to the laptop and not talk to anyone! No one at all! (Only me and the boss in the dept.)
Besides, the boss start to require me to work from home after office hours and weekends if needed. This is not the kind of working environment I wish to have and it's not stated in the employment contract. Why should I follow?
Waiting for my last day...
Don't like the working environment with everyday facing the four walls, sitting in the cubicle, eyes glued to the laptop and not talk to anyone! No one at all! (Only me and the boss in the dept.)
Besides, the boss start to require me to work from home after office hours and weekends if needed. This is not the kind of working environment I wish to have and it's not stated in the employment contract. Why should I follow?
Waiting for my last day...
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Saturday, 1 March 2014
1.3.14
Today date represent forever, a day that only happen once in lifetime.
To celebrate the date, me and 2 friends of mine C & C, coincidently both name start with C - female & male, when for a movie. The movie that we watched is The Journey, a local movie by Astro Shaw. Watching the movie on this day really make my day happy and sad at the same time. It make me miss my dad very much and at the same time feel glad that I still have mum beside me throughout the journey....
It really worth watching the movie. It reminds us not to forget our root, moral values and our custom even we have left to overseas. I will give 5 star for rating..
P/S:Would like to say I luv u, mum!
To celebrate the date, me and 2 friends of mine C & C, coincidently both name start with C - female & male, when for a movie. The movie that we watched is The Journey, a local movie by Astro Shaw. Watching the movie on this day really make my day happy and sad at the same time. It make me miss my dad very much and at the same time feel glad that I still have mum beside me throughout the journey....
It really worth watching the movie. It reminds us not to forget our root, moral values and our custom even we have left to overseas. I will give 5 star for rating..
P/S:Would like to say I luv u, mum!
Saturday, 8 February 2014
Saturday, 18 January 2014
Totally New
I quit my old job and start a new one early mid Jan this year. New year new work. Totally new industry too i.e. logistic. No single background or knowledge. Hoping the grass will be greener and I will last long... *finger crossed*
My cubicle
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Wednesday, 1 January 2014
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